Just like the cloud, my eyes will do the same.

I'll pick up these broken pieces till i bleed if that will make you mine. Im in a great pain, thanks to you. 
I didnt see this one coming. You're so powerful. Damn you, so powerful. Respect doh!
But, you dont have to be so mean.
But, is this karma?. 

Im in pain. So much pain that I can see my heart bleeds. Thank you for all those years. So long. 

*np : Ellie Goulding - How Long Will I Love You. 

Fuck Love Songs. So Long. 

oh, won't you stay with me?

Salam, 

I am listening to Stay with me while writing this post. Right now, im sad. so sad. Oh Allah, help me.

Haiqal said that he wants to break up with me. Is that even sounds real ?For me, its not. It sounds totally wrong.

Succha pain in my heart, in my mind, in my eyes and in my ears when i hear it. Allah, please give be strength to be patience. You're the most Gracious and the most Merciful. 

He said, "awak, i will let you go. You deserve better than this. You deserve someone who is better than me Nur Adila. I do love you. But I think I've failed to make you happy. I know you're not happy. Will you let me go?"

...... and i did let him go, and thats it. Here i am crying my heart out. I mean, why did he sound so serious. Like please, you just said you love me and miss me so much while holding your tears. I can hear you, you stupid. What gets inside you? What are you thinking? I chose to be with you during your good or bad. Cant you see? 

All the best awak. I dont know what to say, or what to think or what to feel anymore. Its so sudden. 

Be happy. I am still hoping that all of this rubbish you said tonight was untrue. Seriously. Or, if you have someone else, and if you're tired of me and that are all your reasons to make me go away, may Allah bless you. I do love you. Just so you know. Be safe. Bye. 

....When be strong is the only choice you have. Goodluck Nur Adila. Love yourself :) 

Haaaaiiiiii,

of 15th August 2014, at 3:03 a.m,
I'm writing this post because i randomly go through any stuffs that came through my mind. So, i end up here in this dusty blog instead of listening to songs on youtube. yucks. LOL
At this hour while writing this post, i then paused while reading my whatsapp conversation with zulhaiqal just now and now i miss him. so much. (start writing again.LOL). 
I SHOULD BE SLEEPING. 
ASSALAMUALAIKUM. 

Above all, im grateful of what i have in life right now. Thank you Allah. 

p/s : I just touched to listen to Mufti Menk. Everytime. Adore him. Thank you Allah for letting me to find such teacher (eventhough on online). I learned a lot i swear. Till then,...Salam.