aaahhh lifeeeeee.

Salam all,

yeah, its true, life is the content of ups and downs and Life's been great on me. Alhamdulillah ya Allah.
I got stories. hihihihi
First, i am excited for our first 617 short getaway. My housemates and i are going for a vacay at pantai timur as in Kelantan and Terengganu. Although time discuss tentatives haritu, i nearly cried like a baby. Buat malu je laa. The reason i cried isssss........ hahahah because i want to go to perhentian sooooo freaking bad, and we cant because first, we're outta time, takut tak sempat pulak kan, second, sebab ramai vote nak pegi jalan KT instead of pegy pulau. There you go, NAK NANES!
BUT BUT BUT BUT .....

Zulhaiqal saved my life. he said,
 "sayangku... awak x tau ke pulau pulau kat sane semua tutup dalam bulan 9 untill bulan 2?"

then i was like seriouslaaaa awak, u saved my life. I love you! bahahaah and i terus x sedih dah. like tah pape. blerghhh. So yeah, excited for this first trip ever with le housemates !

......and the second story. Here it goes.

It happened last night. Last night haiqal went to bed early so, kitaorg tak cakap lama on the phone, just tanya hows your day blablabla and he got headache. So i let him go to sleep. But, im a lil bit pissed off with him due to he left me alone after a long dayy not talking/texting each other. But yeah, i agak merajuk sikit. ha ha ha.

and then i dont know how i went to bed and out of concious. Then, I was awake due to my phone ringing several times, and i saw haiqal's name. The clock shows 4.40 a.m. I was not fully awake at all and i hear he was crying. He says "awak awak awak awak, haiqal mimpi awak, 3 kali haiqal terjage, haiqal mimpi awak tinggalkan haiqal. haiqal takot. haiqal taknak . jangan tinggal haiqal, haiqal sayang awak" andd he kept repeating that. So, i told him "dah la awak, tido lah, ila ngntok ni." and he goes. " no, haiqal taknak tido, haiqal nak cakap dengan awak, haiqal takot." okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy -.-' . So, i was temaning him cakap in mamai mamai until subuh. gosh, so rare sayang.

 Dear Allah, please take care of my loved ones. Jauhkan kami dari segala bencana ya Allah, tempatkan kami di kalangan orang2 beriman, bukakanlah pintu hati kami untuk lebih beriman kepadamu ya Allah. Lembutkan hati kami. Amin. 

okayyy, thats all. hihi
im tired writing this long post.
Till then, xoxo kai. 

       

excuse,

Salam, and excuse my previous post :)

I am better now. Life must goes on . Alhamdulillah, everything back to normal. slowly and easily and hardly. Thank you Allah for all the opportunities and chances.

Hello final year in MICET. AAAAA hello final year project.
Fighting self! You can do it Nur Adila ! You are so loved. Remember that- xoxo

urmmm some more, can i just be this. As FLAT as this please !

Just like the cloud, my eyes will do the same.

I'll pick up these broken pieces till i bleed if that will make you mine. Im in a great pain, thanks to you. 
I didnt see this one coming. You're so powerful. Damn you, so powerful. Respect doh!
But, you dont have to be so mean.
But, is this karma?. 

Im in pain. So much pain that I can see my heart bleeds. Thank you for all those years. So long. 

*np : Ellie Goulding - How Long Will I Love You. 

Fuck Love Songs. So Long. 

oh, won't you stay with me?

Salam, 

I am listening to Stay with me while writing this post. Right now, im sad. so sad. Oh Allah, help me.

Haiqal said that he wants to break up with me. Is that even sounds real ?For me, its not. It sounds totally wrong.

Succha pain in my heart, in my mind, in my eyes and in my ears when i hear it. Allah, please give be strength to be patience. You're the most Gracious and the most Merciful. 

He said, "awak, i will let you go. You deserve better than this. You deserve someone who is better than me Nur Adila. I do love you. But I think I've failed to make you happy. I know you're not happy. Will you let me go?"

...... and i did let him go, and thats it. Here i am crying my heart out. I mean, why did he sound so serious. Like please, you just said you love me and miss me so much while holding your tears. I can hear you, you stupid. What gets inside you? What are you thinking? I chose to be with you during your good or bad. Cant you see? 

All the best awak. I dont know what to say, or what to think or what to feel anymore. Its so sudden. 

Be happy. I am still hoping that all of this rubbish you said tonight was untrue. Seriously. Or, if you have someone else, and if you're tired of me and that are all your reasons to make me go away, may Allah bless you. I do love you. Just so you know. Be safe. Bye. 

....When be strong is the only choice you have. Goodluck Nur Adila. Love yourself :) 

Haaaaiiiiii,

of 15th August 2014, at 3:03 a.m,
I'm writing this post because i randomly go through any stuffs that came through my mind. So, i end up here in this dusty blog instead of listening to songs on youtube. yucks. LOL
At this hour while writing this post, i then paused while reading my whatsapp conversation with zulhaiqal just now and now i miss him. so much. (start writing again.LOL). 
I SHOULD BE SLEEPING. 
ASSALAMUALAIKUM. 

Above all, im grateful of what i have in life right now. Thank you Allah. 

p/s : I just touched to listen to Mufti Menk. Everytime. Adore him. Thank you Allah for letting me to find such teacher (eventhough on online). I learned a lot i swear. Till then,...Salam.